ITS A LONG GOODBYE!!

shits happening with me. sad shit. a lot of it. my friends are leaving . most of them.actually almost all of my old friends are leaving. and i am sad. bob is leaving tomoro .USA . for 2 years. soumitri is leaving tomoro for delhi. sayanto is leaving for chennai.shayeri is leavin for bangalore.kenneth,dear pinu, is leavin next month.and he broke this news to me today.it was the last nail in my coffin.oh,and uma is leaving too,for hyderabad. and a few friends are already out of the city or the country. DAMN!!
do u blame me for being so down in the dumps?? i want to seal my mouth shut;i dont want the goodbyes pouring out of it. i want to chop my arms off;so i wont be able to hug my friends when the time comes to part ways!! i want to gouge my eyes out;so i wont be able to see them leave. i want to break my legs;so i wont be able to walk away from them. will this stop them from going? i dont think so. i dont want to stop them;BUT i wanna stop them. i dont kno . i am a mess
thank god for the new friends i have made.u kno who u r. tough days ahead fr u guys.
i dont kno wat to do. i dont even kno wat it is the point of this blog. does this ease the pain and suffering?? man,i am a wreck. and nothing in the universe can cheer me up. i kno it for a fact. friends are leaving.... i wil too;one day surely... and then wat??? wen shall we meet?? shall we ever?? too fatalistic?? i dont think so. i am feeling so empty rite now. my head is buzzing,my eyes are burning,my stomach is churning.... i am feeling so alone rite now!!! rite now,i am very lonely!! music is not helping....for the first time in my life,its not working. rite now,music is so detrimental...aaaaarrrghh!!!!!

dont kno wat to do...dont kno wat to say...except.......GOODBYE......