RAINY DAY

it has rained all day today ..streets are waterlogged..the city is a mess.
but the day had alot of potential...u can spend a day like this in so many ways...sitting beside an open window...rain spraying on you...watching the world go by..watching the clouds change shape...watchin the birds tryin to take shelter from the rain in trees...a steaming mug of coffee .... a good book...good friends...good conversations...lazy conversations...smoke swirling out...melancholy wisps of smoke...floating away...like time...drifting away...beyond our mortal remembrance...memories of a day gone by...a day like this...waving a girl goodbye...from the middle of a street...her car driving off...me waving to her...didnt kno things would change when i would see her the next time...there was soo much hope that day...hope shattered later on...dreams crumbling...like waking up from a dream which you never wanted to end...moving on...similar days happening every year,rain and clouds...but still not quite the same...lookin across to the other side of the waterlogged street...stolen glances...stolen memories...a stolen smile....someone stealing a beat of your heart...maybe stealing much more...maybe stealing nothing at all...building castles....not castles...something smaller maybe...we were young once...we are young now...just doesnt feel the same anymore...we are tempered now...i cant explain...those days,wasnt this cynical...it has set in now...age and cynicism...they go hand in hand...life makes you lose faith in many things...the butterflies arent there anymore...maybe they r but not as active as they were once...maybe we dont fear the unknown anymore...maybe we have seen all there is to be seen...maybe we dont want to see anything new anymore...when we were young,when things were simple...we yearned for complexities...now that we have more than our fair share...we dont want it..i dont want it...i yearn for simplicity ....i miss simplicity...the innocence....the simple wonders...we used to look on wide eyed...havent been that way for a long time...the man who would be king...the boy who would be king...i was once that boy...all of us were...we wanted it all...thought we would get it all...we were the princes of the universe...just got lost somewhere on the road to our kingdom...still wandering around,clinging on to the last shred of hope...maybe we shall discover el dorado...someday...surely...maybe...what happened to us...it wasnt to be this way,was it..we were quitely confident...something happened on the way...dont know...dont want to find out...where did i go wrong...or was it all wrong...from the very outset...faith no more...we had a chance...i had a chance...once...did i lose it...did i lose my way...did i lose much more...did i lose anything at all.......lost friends,lost enemies,lost bets,lost our minds,lost ourselves in someone,lost someone....but did we really lose anything at all??