seams...

life happens.... in a moment...in years....in a blink of an eye...we live through so many lifetimes...one after another...it just fits together...falls into place...in wierd ways.... fit in...or gets ripped apart...like an old pair of jeans... comfortable...yet dispensible... by compulsion..not by choice.... shit happens all the time.... somehow works out in the end...the end...of everything that's passed..... the end....no i am not being fatalistic...just...being... dont ask questions....or harbor doubts and misgivings....let it be.... you gotta roll roll roll.... change is a neccesary poison...a purgative.... painful...yet a stark neccesity.... change from up to down...wing to wing...right to left.... friendship to loneliness.... something stupid to something meaningful.... all that you cant leave behind...but you have to....cant always get what you want.... but how do i know this is what i want...for now its good...but what happens in the everafter....blllleeeeaarggghh... another catharsis.... u know it guys...this is a familiar tone... a monotonous tone...boring yet comfortingly familiar....hope so...just to let you know that im here...right now...always.... im still alive...